late jan. 2013

all locked up,

transforming .

the child is

almost here .

a vegan diet,

a vow of chastity .

without hoping,

resigned to you,

longing to feel
love and to love,
though I love you so dear .

in this forgetting the misdeed,

when sirens blared, the prayer:

"let her return harmlessly

to the flesh from which she rose ."

the needle dives
deep into muscle .
the deadly serum
sinks and soaks,
asserting itself .
months until freedom
from its dose, and the same
until I'll see you again and again
out on the road .

when I'll wonder less about if
and start preparing for when ...

we meet .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dcrnjBMhmoE

in the mountains
sean led us to some old
places he had been as a child .

i felt it coming on
but i wasn't worried .
i knew you were
with child and
with it so much to comprehend
i was quite alone with them
and the mountains .

the trees burst in red
orange and yellow rolling
away across the distance,
we saw far atop the first
peak at calvary .

next was chimney,
where sean jumped a deadly gap,
then resting on an 80ft pillar .
i went down and around,
soon joining him on the leaning megalith .

the energy from the rock
and all of the formation
coursed it's way through me
expressing its resonance .

as sean sunbathed,
earth and sky merged,
clouds came on cool air,
the forest glowed,
all was in union .

yet the horror of the fall
was too real; in that swirl
of magnificent energy i clung,
unable to surrender .

i met another in the mirror

yet having my features

thought him my own;

while his was an expression

of wisdom and love,

in me was surprise and awe .

i searched for him,

through many men whose voices were heard,

a lineage of incarnation the great hope,

though finding no resonance in online text,

or photographs, still without a name .

i saw you before i was

able to learn anything more ...

i bothered you at work

and we never had coffee ...

then in the summer,

I was outside one fine day,

and in pure thought, an answer

began to form, and I learned ...

the man in the mirror was very important;

he gathered together the tribes in the northeast,

forming a council, the last to convert

a powerful war chief, who was appointed

head of the council .

~

"some say that the Peacemaker and the Jigonsaseh

wed ... " 

... "I wish to raise her as our own ."

from the cool shallows

from no where,

stars blazing over

the cool night .

in daylight this,

in daylight ..

in the house on

the hill burns gold,

the forest in midnight's

deep blue .

home .

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BEAR Deep in slumber, dreams unending, Wise old bear, patient, strong, Send me dreams of transformation. Grant me intuition along With introspection of my life, Inner listening, no more strife. Caution, Healing, Leadership The power of the Bear totem is the power of introspection. The answers to all our questions lie within us. Each of us has the capacity to quiet the mind, enter the silence and know.  Just as the bear hibernates during the winter, people with a Bear totem will be quieter during the winter months.  But they must awaken in the spring and seek whatever opportunities are around them. When you have a Bear totem, you are being guided to a leadership role. You must be fearless in defending your beliefs. The Bear also encourages you to exercise your abilities as a natural healer. Bears are associated with trees which are natural antennas, linking the heavens and the Earth. Bear also has links to the seven color rays of the Universal Light as well as Lunar ties, linking the subconscious and the unconscious mind. It is associated with the Goddess Artemis.

what's on your mind ?

we're being watched .

ready ?

if you are .

what's on your mind ?

do you see i'm drowning

in the abyss ?  i'm an old

rag .

ready ?

not until we talk .

not until i know

you'll always stay .

what's on your mind ?

i know this is going to work out

but it's not working out with me now .

ready ?

let's wait until just one word of love

can leave from me to you .  perhaps

that would take too long .

what's on your mind ?

i'm worn out by the sex .

ready ?

no, i need time to gather my strength .

~

dani - probably a chakra blowout .

there are techniques to regather energy ...

                  

what was ours

is consumed,

ashes .

you waged your war,

a silent terror,

and i burned with it .

i may be a fool

to the realness of your love,

but i am no fool

to your tactics, love .

you left without realizing

what life was to spring

from such desolate rubble .

and all else is a veil

or an expression !

with the whole world in one room,

i know you'd hear my voice

calling out for you .

in a deep, deep sleep
of the innocent, i am born again .

with no fear of catalyzing
a vision, an embarkation
into the vast unknown .
falling, dying, caught
rambling in the arms
of you, sublime one .
i felt no flame then,
no burning within,
just the ambition
of one who has been called great
and now must realize this himself .
the tears and toil,
yet your struggle and frustration,
and intensity seemingly stifled to sway,
transforms me now .
so that to you
the impossibility I had become,
that psychotic comatose,
is completed in your timeless
affection .  while hormones
will say their share,
my heart feels you once
and says, 'forever, Jackson, .. forever ."